already 2 years...

assalamualaikum...

tonight i just thinking about myself..it's already 2 years i leaved upm and stay with my family..i'm still searching for a job..owhhh, how sad!!..i know i'm too far from my friends..much of them already have their own job, married and plan to get married, have their own baby and counting days for a newborn...

everyone have their own fate, their own journey and their own story...include me..two years i waiting for a job (my parents too)...just hope for a job that i can depends and survive myself...but not my rezeki yet...alhamdulillah i have my job right now...even though, now i'm include in lower income and deserve for BR1M, i happy with my life now..together with my family is a wonderful feeling..serve for them is my responsible and priority (selagi bertitle bujang)....hopefully, Allah bless my parents and me..

since i categorized as lower income, it's quite challenge for me to handle my finance...everything change after leaved upm...before this, i just buy what i want without worries, now i must think before i buy something..before this if i craving for something, i just get it..but now, i only can craving for a cheap things..hahaha...it's really2 different...but if u ask me, "am i like my past life or recent life?"..i will answer "of course i love my life right now"...because i'm not a person who like to 'undo'...i just think about right now and the comings...the past is just memories...

but it's doesn't means that i just want to be like this...i'm normal person...of course i want better...



monolog malam 12 Ramadan..
by: asma